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Post by celticbear on Mar 22, 2014 17:52:38 GMT -5
Well it looks like their relationship is getting back to what it should be. Glad the couple sessions are helping. And I agree keep the couple sessions and ditch the individual ones!
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Post by fallingn2ct on May 28, 2014 13:39:43 GMT -5
"Ryan", she placed a hand against his chest,"I can't" she stood, allowing much needed space between them.
He sighed dropping his head into his hands. Each time they attempted to be close she would pull away. He could see glimpses of the woman he had fallen in love, but those glimpses were quickly dimmed when she shut herself down. Her body would go rigid beneath his hands, the warmth would turn cold,"Jules", he said gently,"I don't know what else I can do to show you how much I love you. How I want to work this out."
"I know" she agreed,"I want to be in your arms and to be like we used too, but it's different now."
"I know you're afraid, but so am I. You weren't the only one who lost him."
"Why is it so much easier for you? I feel like my world is gone, like I will never be myself again. And here you are, still singing and going on with life."
"Do you want to move on?"
"I don't want to forget him", she swiped quickly at her eyes,"If I let myself be happy for a moment, I feel so guilty. My son is gone and yet I am here. That's not how it's supposed to go."
"You're not alone, Jules. Neither of us are. I know I checked out for a while and that was wrong, but I didn't know how to be around you. I wanted my wife back and I know that I will never have that woman. I will have the woman who has suffered an incredible loss. We suffered that loss together and now we should start moving forward."
"How?", she asked,"How? When I feel so guilty, I am the reason he isn't here." As the words left her mouth she realized the truth in them. She had felt as though Christopher's death was he fault. She was the one carrying him, she should have known when something was wrong,"It was my fault".
"It's not your fault", Ryan quickly gathered her in his arms,"It was never your fault."
"I should have known, I should have felt that something was wrong."
"You couldn't have", he held her face in his hands,"There was no way to know!"
She let herself fall against him as her body wracked with the tears and emotions she had kept in check. The guilt and anguish rolled through her as if it were the first time. She didn't even realize when Ryan lay her on the bed, clutching her to his chest. She held onto him, fearing he too would disappear.
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Post by HburgEagle44 on May 28, 2014 16:55:09 GMT -5
Fall is back!!! This was beautiful.
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Post by fallingn2ct on May 29, 2014 14:59:32 GMT -5
It had been nearly five months since Julie's break down, it wasn't so much a break down as it had been a break through. After that night she had woken up with a clearer understanding of herself and of the emotions that she had been carrying around for months. The loss of their son would never be forgotten, but they would be able to move forward.
She sat down the box in her arms and looked around their new home. They had made a decision together to move out of the apartment and away from the walls that held too many painful memories. It was a fresh start in the small house in the suburbs of Boston. A large fenced in yard that was currently covered with a thin dusting of snow, windows that allowed plenty of light to illuminate the living room and dining area.
"I think that's everything?", Ryan said taking a swig from the water bottle in his hand.
"We're finally home", Julie said with a smile.
He admired the true smile on his wife's face. It was one of the few that had displayed on months. It spread across her rosy cheeks and reached her eyes. She was slowly coming back to him, there were still rough edges every now and then, but they weathered them together.
"What?" she asked as she noticed how he looked at her.
"Just enjoying my gorgeous wife", he gave her a wink.
"Always a charmer", she crossed to him,"I love you", she kissed him.
"I love you too", he whispered,"Ready to unpack?"
"Do we have too?", she sighed with a laugh.
"Come on", he grinned taking her hand.
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Post by barbt on May 29, 2014 18:06:52 GMT -5
Really enjoying this and at the same time it's bringing back some sad memories. I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in my first pregnancy :-(
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Post by celticbear on Jun 19, 2014 19:22:11 GMT -5
Poor Julie carrying all that quilt! Glad she got it all out! So happy that her and Ryan have made a fresh start in Boston!
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